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2. |
Confession (Interlude)
01:52
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Caviar and shrimp
a 50 car garage
Homes on each coast and
One in Prague
I’m stuntin like Bilzerian
But givin like Santa
Yeah Life is a dream
Ha, I knew we’d make it .. la la
La la la
No more cereal for dinner
No more ramen noodles
No more racin in the rain to catch that last bus
I told my boss … kiss my ass
No more dwelling in that cubicle
The beach in San Trope is much more suitable
I got advisors to advise
My other advisors
Enough cash in a trust
To live off the interest
My family members paid
But fakers I ignore
If you was with me when I‘m down
We chillin at the top
Now a worldwide tour, we’re on our way
In a Gulfstream Jet .. hangin with
Edidie Vedder, Rick Rubin and Lana Del Rey
Caviar and shrimp
a 50 car garage
Homes on each coast and
One in Prague
I’m stuntin like Bilzerian
But givin like Santa
Yeah Life is a dream
Ha, I knew we’d make it .. la la
La la la
Life could be a dream
If I could take you up on paradise up above
If you would tell me I’m the only one that you love
Life could be a dream sweetheart
Bae, did you see that?
I just had the strangest, most realistic out-of-body experience when I looked into your eyes just now
What? You were there too?
I know, I could swear it was real.
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4. |
Heart of a Champion
02:54
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This is what we train for
This is what we strive for
This is why we work hard
This is what we live and die for
If I knew it was my time
On this crazy, f’d up planet
I’d tell my loved ones
I love you
I’ll See you in a minute
But there’s just one thing
that I’ve got to finish
This is my time
This is my day
Now is our moment
I’m takin my turn
Gonna Supernova blast-off sun burst shine
Imma go out like a kang
Gonna be a warrior
Turn on that beast mode
Cuz I’m the
ever-lovin boss
Chairman of the Board
Commander in Chief
I’m a one-man army and
Together we will rise
Crush our enemies
Anyone who dares to
Stand in our way
If you know it you feel it
Cuz its in your bones
This is what it feels like
The heart of a champion
The heart of a champion
The heart of a champion
The heart of a champion
This is what we train for
This is what we strive for
This is why we work hard
This is what we live and die for
Imma leave it all out there
Every ounce of my being
If you know it you feel it
Cuz its in your bones
This is what it feels like
The heart of a champion
The heart of a champion
The heart of a champion
The heart of a champion
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5. |
Lighthouse (The Rock)
04:12
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This is for the rocks
This is for the teachers
This is for the coaches
This is for the parents
This is for all the true believers
They say every blade of grass has
A tiny little angel
Whisperin in its ear
Sayin
Grow, grow
I wonder who that was
Whisperin in my ear
When I felt like a tiny grain of sand
In this ocean of people
Wonderin why
Why didn’t God make me special
Didn’t give me a gift like Lebron
Dedication of The Rock
Or savvy like Jobs
Coulda thrown me a bone
With a high metabolism
Or a perfect pitch ear
But naw .....
Instead he gave me
The gift of Bipolar
The challenge of depression
A mathematical brain
With a creative passion
The willingness to fall on my face
over and over and over and still get back up
Yes, yes that’s somethin
I’ll take it in heartbeat
Wouldn’t trade ya for a minute
Every next second is a blessing if I take it
We don’t all make it
It’s not your fault
You can lead the horse
But on his own, he’s gotta drink it
This is for all / the people in my life
You saw that I was down
But you didn’t give up
Now I’m handlin the rock
Thank you for showin up
When I was swimmin in quicksand
You were my rock
I was searchin for meaning
In this world of sin
Didn’t wanna give up / but why begin
You were there like a rock
When I was blowin in the wind
From the bottom of my heart
Tears streamin down my face
I just gotta say, thank you
Thank you my teachers
Thank you mom, thank you dad
Thank you all my coaches and everyday believers
Family and friends with encouraging words
Yeah I know I made a lotta mistakes
But every second that passed
Gives me, gives me a new chance
Now this aint about money, status or fame
I wanna do what I love, wanna spread my message
Open up the skies
Like tears from heaven
This is for all / the people in my life
You saw that I was down
But you didn’t give up
Now I’m handlin the rock
Thank you for showin up
When I was swimmin in quicksand
You were my rock
I was searchin for meaning
In this world of sin
Didn’t wanna give up / but why begin
You were there like a rock
When I was blowin in the wind
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Before you lay me down to sleep
Will you read me a story
In my head these thoughts will creep
That I am somewhat ugly
That I’m not good enough
That everyone is laughing at me
Man I want to take the world
Hold it in my arms
Like you held me
Say Everything’s gonna be alright now
Everything’s gonna be alright
There’s no need for fear or shame
And you will be safe with me
I’m always here with you
In your heart and in your dreams
I love you
No matter what you do
You can never / dissapoint me
I love you
No matter what you do
You can never / dissapoint me
I love you
No matter what you do
You can never / dissapoint me
Before you lay me down to sleep
Will you read me a story
In my head these thoughts will creep
That I am somewhat ugly
That I’m not good enough
That everyone is laughing at me
Man I want to take the world
Hold it in my arms
Like you held me
Say Everything’s gonna be alright now
Everything’s gonna be alright
There’s no need for fear or shame
And you will be safe with me
I’m always here with you
In your heart and in your dreams
I love you
No matter what you do
You can never / dissapoint me
I love you
No matter what you do
You can never / dissapoint me
I love you
No matter what you do
You can never / dissapoint me
I love you
No matter what you do
You can never / dissapoint me
I love you
No matter what you do
You can never / dissapoint me
I love you
No matter what you do
You can never / dissapoint me
I love you
No matter what you do
You can never / dissapoint me
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7. |
You're Gonna Make It
03:54
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Snot runnin down your face
Piercing yet vacant blue eyes
I don’t got a lot
Compared to some
But I’m blessed beyond reason
Damned be my dark side
It loves that / woes me
woes me throw a pity party
In my name
Knick knack paddy whack
Where is my bone?
So I share with you
A meal that’s warm
And a lil cup of coffee
yeah I know it aint a lot
But I’m a silly man
Yeah I’m under-cover
Wanna hypnotize you
With my own eyes
Wanna show you
That I believe in you
So as I’m leavin, I shake your hand
Look into your eyes
And say, hang in there, man
Hang in there
I know You’re gonna make it
I know You’re gonna make it
I know I’m just
A drop in the ocean
I’m just a man
With a little emotion
A vision of a brotherhood
One love under heaven
What if heaven could be here
.. and we threw it all away
What if hell was on earth too
What if it had a lot to do
with the choices we make
And how we treat each other
I don’t believe in violence
I don’t believe in change
acquired through means
involving gun barrels
or threats of prison time
So there’s not much I can do besides treat my fellow humans right
Shit I aint perfect—far from it
But when I saw you strugglin
Thought I’d make the most of it
Now, wherever you are, hang in there
I know You’re gonna make it
I know You’re gonna make it
Yeah, maybe in a couple months
Bump into ya randomly
And barely recognize
Wanna see that sparkle
That light in your eyes
Glow like the sun
Breathin air like a newborn
That kick in your step
Like when you were fourteen
I asked if you had any hobbies, or sports you used to play
A gentle reminder
What we used to be like
Back in the day
Before the cynicism took hold
Before the world turned cold,
full of darkness and pain
Maybe together we could make a change
I’m in need of salvation
And your life looks like it could use a little savin
Maybe we could trade
I know You’re gonna make it
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8. |
Wonder Years (Interlude)
00:50
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9. |
Redemption Prayer
03:56
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I can feel it in the night
I can feel it creepin in
That cold, dark, creepy crawly
Feelin, underneath my skin
What it is I dont know
But it’s a widespread sickness
It’ll blow out your candle
Before you make your last wish
Feed off your energy
Parasitic, symbiotic
Always seems to be
Lurkin in the shadows
Like it’s whisperin ..
“hey, wanna come out n play
I got a lotta fun toys, over here
On this side of the street”
It was there in Berlin, 1933
There in Colorado, 1999
There in the streets, 2018
Two sides protestin
With hate in their hearts
Huh, seem more like
Co-conspirators to me
Lord, give me the strength
To make it through another day
Thank you for the angels
I’ll follow them today
And if I stray into
That darkness of hate
Please take my sins and
wash em all away
Hey, sometimes all we got
Is this moment right here
Let the past fade away
The future can wait
I’m here with you now
That’s where I wanna stay
If I could only take
All the blessings that you gave
And bundle them up
In a package like way
I’d sell em by the gram
Be a new kind a Hope dealer
Shit, I know I’m probably tripppin
But this one’s for the scumbags
The dirtbags
All the wanna-be losers / Who lost their way
I’m tellin you now / it’s never too late
Lord, give me the strength
To make it through another day
Thank you for the angels
I’ll follow them today
And if I stray into
That darkness of hate
Please take my sins and
wash em all away
2:53
Yeah karma / or whatever it is
yeah it’s kinda a bitch
But I promise you / He didn’t load you down
with more than you can take
That easy out I promise you
It aint the way
If you need to, I’ll be here
We can stay up all night
I’ll teach you how to save a life like The Fray
And when that morning Sun rise from the East
Yeah, well we made it through another day
At least for a moment
He took all our sins
And washed em all away
He took all our sins
And washed em all away
Lord, give me the strength
To make it through another day
Thank you for the angels
I’ll follow them today
And if I stray into
That darkness of hate
Please take away my sins
wash em all away
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It’s gonna happen eventually
Wether I like it or not
Might as well prepare
Even if / as I hope / it’s when
My skin is wrinkled like prunes
And my body aches from a life full of use
I used to just say .. if I die, throw my body off a bridge into some river
I don’t wanna be a burden on anyone
But now I’m thinking
That’s pretty selfish
To rob the people I love
Of a chance to celebrate life?
I wanna be the asshole in death
That I couldn’t be when alive
When I die, wherever you are
Find a spot where you can blast some tunes at full volume
Where you can Sing—at the top of your lungs
Neighbors or onlookers be damned
You’re gonna dance and maybe, look like an idiot—it’s not a request, it’s my last wish
I want you to play songs
That remind you of me
Crank em to eleven
Let go, let it all go
I give you permission
If that’s what you need to hear
I implore and command you
To know that you’re still that kid who used to
grab your mom’s hair brush and
use it as a microphone
Who used to do silly dances
... when no one was watching
I’ll tell you now, despite what the world may have told you, you are good enough and no, you dont “act too weird”
You might be a little unconfident
A little disenchanted
I want you to, some night after I pass ... for as long as you can
Be the most you that you could posdibly be
I know they try to beat it out of us
It’s just the nature of the beast
I give you permission to sing, dance, laugh, love, speak, write, create — to follow your passion in the heat of the moment
For I am there with you
And I’m not gonna put up with any too cool for school wallflowers either
No, not at my celebration
And I’ll tell you now
You are not allowed to cry tears of sadness at this party
Not in my name
If I see one feigned expression of sadness
Because that’s what you’re “supposed to” do ... why I swear to God I will personally come back down there and kick your ass
There better damn well be some giggling
Call your parents and people you care about and love
Tell them, however you can, how much they mean to you
Like my mom who was always there for me through my trials and tribulations
And my dad, who bought me my first guitar and is still my number one fan
I love you guys
I love all of you
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11. |
Redemption Ark
11:10
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